getting through the sickening week

I am so much in pain cuz I expected myself to be in Malaysia already now. But fate has destined that I'll have to stay for a week here in Jakarta before I could proceed my holiday back home. God, please give me strenght to forgo this boring and hurtful week. Dun get me wrong , I mean I know that we have to except the things that we do not like cuz whatever happens, it is the best that are planned by Allah SWT. I'm just dissapointed cuz I hardly have anything to do right now before starting my SP week next week which starts 2morrow. Some of my friends have all gone bak and more will be departing today. I feel so lonely and bored.
3 weeks ago, I was so sure that I didn't have to SP. So I bought myself a KLM air lines ticket dated 21st FEB, without expecting the unexpected D in my Histology module. I was so exited that I thought that I'll be able to go back to Malaysia for 3 weeks. I long to see tok baba and mak tok again. But now that a weeks is taken from me, how am I suppose to make it. I dunno when else I would be able to see them again. They've been wanting to see me since before I even start my classes in Jakarta, which is like 6 months ago. They are old, they couldn't wait so much longer. I'm afraid that I wouldn't make it to see them for the last time.
Furthermore, this is not a school holiday season in Malaysia, how is mum suppose to send me to Kedah? Taking train on my own? I dunno if mum would let that happen. Who will fetch me there? I mean, I may live in Jakarta but, hey! there is no Bluebird there in Butterworth which will take me to S.Petani. I mean, I am not used to low level public transport, like buses.
Anyway, I am also thinking bout how I'm suppose to see dad? Does he want to come down to Selangor to see me again like he did on my previous holiday? Cuz he only came cuz he had this examination in Bangi. Besides that, I was a jerk of wanting to go bak to mum's as soon as possible that stupid morning. Cuz I can't stand being in other people's house. Mak cik may have bibik, but her bibik can hardly cook breakfast, so it got me feel guilty of not being able to cook. Damn! I always think that people expect something from me, which they don't really do.
I wonder if i'll be happy if I go bak to msia. I mean it. Life anywhere is pretty much the same without the person that you love the most. I miss mum so much. I wanna go out with mum again to shop with her at ..hmm I dunno where we are supppose to shop anymore cuz TESCO is like banned already. Mum is the person who has positive things to say and always make me smile even when i'm crying or at the climax of my dilemma. On the other hand, she is pretty much annoying cuz of her fondness to blabber to her children. God we hate it so much but that's just mum who loves us and wants to protect us. When I told her bout me comin bak on 28th FEB, she asked me to cheer up cuz at the bright side, I will be celebrating my birthday here in Malaysia which is on 6th March. So yeah, there will be cake for sure, like always n presents too. Ow, I luv my family..