A student can never brag about how busy and packed his life is, especially campus life which is seriously havoc and full of sweet and bitter moments that each and everyone has to undergo. You can never escape from the responsibilities of being a student. Honestly, i am trying so hard to fit myself in this mess.
As I finish highschool when I was 17, I went into matrics.. The life I had there was extremely busy and packed with brain torture classes from 8 a.m. till as late as 4 p.m. Then at nite, you have to spend time finishing piles and bundants of assignments. Not to mention your study time is depending on how many your assignments are. If you get lucky, u'll have time to revise the things that you've learnt for the day.. but if you are not lucky enough, you'd find yourself stuck studying the last week material which you don't even remember what it's about anymore. Furthermore, I truly hate mathematics tutorials..HATE IT so much cuz there are like tonnes of questions to be done for each topic before you enter the tutorials. I admit that i frequently come into tutorials without finishing it. 4 flat students could have done it but not me honestly. The time to actually do math tutorials is during the weekends..that is if you manage to finish it..cuz frankly, i took 1 hour to finish a question most of the time. Can you believe it?? I couldn't either.
So, yeah life in matrics sucks really. I remember once that lecturers in matrics kept on saying to do our best and just take things the way they are cuz when you enroll into university, your life would be better.. in the aspect of leisure time and the classes gaps. But damn i wish they were right cuz now I feel that was such a lie.. I mean yeah, it's great to have my own room and privacy but still although it's not as packed as matrics, I would have to say that my life is rather dull and boring. Cuz what i'm learning nowadays is really challenging and difficult and you'd really have to focus in the lecture hall. No matter how much you study, you just won't be able to score..what i mean about score is getting an A. That is not easy at all. Especially, for me, the kind of person who is a slow learner.
Just like the previous module, histology, I easily failed in it.. and about to fail another one, biochem. Just imagine, me failing and have to repeat the module in the short sem and that means i'd have to pay for at least 800 000 rupiah for a module... plus not being able to go back to Malaysia like others can..waaaAAAA. My life is a mess right now.I can only study3, not having any other thing to do until I pass. What is the meaning of life if it is for studying only. Sometimes i wonder if I chosed the wrong course to be in. I made lots of sacrifices before i came here..and one of them is not being able to visit Midvalley frequently like I used to...huhu. Well , life's a highway anyway.. That's why it's called cruel.
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