Solehah woman is for a Soleh man

Assalamualaikum,
All these while, till i'm turning 20 this March..I always wonder why I've never been into a love relationship with any boy. When I was in primary school, I used to dream about my prince charming and list down the characteristics of husband that I want to marry. Then, I'd give the list to my mom to read.. and she'd read it aloud so that my dad could hear it too. That was pretty embarasing for me now..but not really when I was small. Young days..haha. I also remember naming my future kids.. I can't remember what the names are, it's been such a long time.
Then, when I was in the secondary school, I became a boy hater. Don't even talk about boys in front of me.. cuz I wouldn't like it. I hate to think of relationship with the opposite gender, this is cuz I have fear for divorce. Since that I was in a girl school, I had no problem at all cuz I dun have to face any boy except for tuition during weekends. In form 4, when I enrolled into MRSM, Muar, I have difficulties in mixing with the boys cuz my hatred for boys wasn't over. I always thought that girls should be better than boys at any aspect, especially studies, cuz you know what guys are like..They are super lazy. I'd be extremely ashamed of myself if they got higher marks than I do. During that time, I had no guy friend at all cuz I was hard on them, I yell and be rude if I had to.
Now, that I'm in a university life, I change my perceptions about them. Cuz seriously, they are great scorers.. I hate the fact but it's just so true. Girls also have to befriend them as the communication is important among students. Yet, I wonder why no body ever asked me..or never do I find out that any one has ever admire me or anything. Am I not beautiful enough to have a bf?? I felt sooo wanna be in luv with someone and want someone to love me back just as much. I also insisted on having a boyfriend that cares for me.
Just recently, I viewed my old aquaintances friendster pages, blogs and more.. I found out that they are very much in love. Putting their bf's images here and there. I weirdly, do not feel jealous, in fact I felt rage.. Cuz what I can see are sins that are obvious but not admitted. Those includes, holding hands, be too close to each other, not wearing head cover or even not covering eves daughter 'aurat'. Coupling is not allowed in Islam, and it goes the same for extreme socializations. Cuz do you think that your bf will be your husband for sure? Would they be there for you if you're damn fat , ugly and in embarasing condition? Think twice dear friends. What would your mother have said if they see you in those dispecable pictures?? More importantly, what would Allah SWT feel about it?? Our aurat and hijjab is a gift to our husband only after marriage.. Don't we feel sorry for our husband if we have given it to someone else before him?? What would he feel? Remember that wanita yg baik adalah untuk lelaki yg baik. Be a sweet n precious apple that is above on the tree rather than the one that is covered in mud below here.. cuz Allah has destined for someone special just to pluck you.. Just be patient.
I just wanna say how lucky I am that Allah protects me from those kinds of social life. Allah has given me wonderful family so that I'd always be close to them instead of being a boy crazy.. NOW I KNOW WHY I AM DESTINED TO BE SINGLE UNTIL NOW.. ALHAMDULLILAH ..SYUKUR.. I AM SO THANKFUL THAT I AM UNDER ALLAH's PROTECTION.