smartwork outweight hardwork

Some of you girls must have known bout how weak my studies have been right?? The fact that I am taking medic course should not be an excuse for me to get low and so so marks coz seriously, even farahnajwa took anatomy and medical basic learning stuff right, yet she can score. For the past semester, I have gain a 5 series of carbon+ chain, if you know what I mean. My point is that I think I have found the solution to the mystery sickness of mine. Damn! How could I not see this and I should've gone and see a counsellor about it. My grades could have been better.

While I was studying in Convent, I have this habbit of not paying attention in the class. I usually would be dreaming, talking or joking at the back of the class with adlynn. I never cared to concentrate at all. But yet, I got straight A's in my PMR. How people, could I possibly got such result? Because I was so hardworking, I wld usually not be listening in the class but when I go back home, I'd be studying hard and memorizing all the damn facts over and over again. I even study on friday evening. I was proud of the fact, but now I seriously think that I was stupid to do that.WHY? Don't cha think that PMR level was easy to learn without a teacher? Yes, you can understand withOUT going to class at all. That is how, I could have done it.

Let's compare it with SPM shall we? SPM learning process, demands students to UNDERSTAND, not just memorizing stupid facts right. Since that I never accustome myself to pay attention, thus I never learn to understand what I have been thought. Damn, how could I not concentrate to what the teacher had to say? Cuz when I go back home, I complaint of NOT having enough time to study like I used to have during PMR. RUBBISH!!! I should have listened cuz whatever that comes out of the lecturer's mouth is damn VALUEABLE to be jotted down.

The same thing happens right here, right now at this damn moment. I told you guys before that I do not even recognise the answer given (MCQ) on the exam paper. How people, I ask you, could that possibly be, even when I have been hardworking enough to read the exam material for 1000 times, have no clue at all of the given answers?? CUZ, THE MATERIALS ARE MOSTLY, DIRECTLY, CLEARLY, CAME OUT OF THE LECTURER'S MOUTH. And I have not been listening.. that's why I never score. And @#$%#$#$, I never knew the SECRET OF SUCCESS TILL NOW!!!

Ya Allah, thank you so much for opening my eyes and for this gift. Now I knew what my weakness is. So, I'm getting ready to score. I'll try my best insyallah. I would like to say that even at this point, I heve never stopped asking scorers, the their secret of success. Always, I repeat..., always try and never give up even if you have fallen hard on the ground.