forever trying to forget

can't seem to forget;

will be wondering now and then;

try to get busy with both worlds demands;

try to gather the feel of hatred;

try to get it loosen from up here.

sometimes though surprisingly, I managed;

but each time I face it again, I got hypnotized;

each time it occurs, I had to go back to square one.

Is it an obsession?

Is it preoccupation?

Or is it love?