muhasabah diri

Today's agenda in my usrah was a so called game. In this game, everyone are instructed to write their name on a piece of paper. Then, they have to pass the paper to everyone so that they can write whatever that they wish to tell us. So, I'm not goin to discuzz bout the good quality. Let's discuzz bout what I wasn't really feeling ok with and it took my attention.

• sgt sensitif ( I have to agree with that, I really am.. )
• agak susah utk bergurau senda ( really?? I am quite serious sometimes)
• kdg2 percakapan bleh buat org terasa tanpa disedari ( This is wat I want to discuss the most, I always do this and it just cannot be stopped, it's natural..All I want to do is to be honest that's all. Rather than keep it inside me.. I can't bear it. Believe me people, if I have never get mad at you, come to me and ask me what you've done to me, cuz maybe I've kept things from you)
• babe, kdg2 aq takut nak cakap dgn ko sbb ayat ko pedas dowh. mungkin jugak sbb ko berjwtn tinggi. ( it means nothing weh berjwtn ni... I feel the barrier that all of you have surrounded me with, sometimes I have to be very firm to get you all to listen. I've had enough from being a pushover in my past, where people hardly respect me and in my observation, you have to be an A student and have high position to get people to listen to you. I ain't wanna be the weak person anymore, that's why I transformed in matrics)

But guys, I really respect your opinion, I do. I just want you all to be patient to my unbearable attitude. I'm imperfect, yess. I'll try not to tercakap lepas atau pedas. ok