crush immune

When I was metamorphosizing in Convent, I wrote a wishlist letter meant to be for myself in the future. So, I kept that letter neatly, remember where I kept it and wait until all of my wishes came true. Then, will the wishlist letter be read to congratulate myself for achieving what I've been wishing for.

I still remember the content of the letter, and apart from achieving good grades, I also wish that I WOULDN'T GET INVOLVE IN COUPLING through out 2ndary school. In the end, I achieved that goal, for it is 'that' easy, that's cuz I went to Convent. Therefore, I dun get to meet a lot of boys except for tuttion. It still is the same while I was in matrics and until now. I don't ever want to get involve in 'industri perkapelan'.

It's just that now, I am trying to renew the wishlist letter. But this time, it gets more narrow and strict. I wish that I will not have anymore crush on anyone until someone has a crush on me first. Weird though, cuz honestly, with my past crushes, they seems to be crushing on me back. But that didn't happen with my recent crush. SoOO, there goes the pain. (Hambek kau! nak yang hensem2 jek). LOL

I've thought about it. Even Kak Mimi said that I should just go for someone who loves me first. Cuz that way, you know that they love you even more than you could imagine. Living happily ever after life is a guarantee this way. So to my babes out there, stop crushing on Mr. Xsedardiri. Just try to except the ones who loves you MORE or someone who meet you for the first time and say, deep down in their heart "Dia adalah wanita yang diciptakan untuk ku". (ok, I'm starting to be all mushy2...gotta stop myself. LOL)