big girls do cry

What are you lookin at? Have you never seen a girl cry before?

That was what I monologued to myself when a stranger looked at me strangely when they see my reddened blotchy eyes. Fyi, crying is nature, so stare at me not!

Have you ever cried in front of the public eyes? I had a few times. One was when I cried in the ktm when I was on my way back to Kajang (mom's) from Subang (dad's). I cried cuz dad said that he had to move to Kedah as he was promoted and they needed him there. While I was in the train, I thought of how seldomly I will be able to see my dad when he moves. I mean, I will sure miss him alot. But it's not like I made any sound when I was crying. I just wet my cheeks, that's all and they we're all staring at me curiously.

Then, there was this one time when I cried in the middle of Midvalley lobby cuz my brand new nokia 5300 was stolen, which I bought with my first salary. This time, I cried so loud and nobody really stare cuz you know how crowded midvalley could be. They don't bother at all. Sheesh and my mum tried to calm me down, while I cried like a baby.

And the latest one, just now. I went down to the mart to get something to feed my tummy. I just knew these blotchy eyes will get peoples attention, though I don't give a damn at all. So, there was this one guy, staring few times, and I stared back so he'd stop staring. Gosh, please people, crying is no biggy matter. Everybody does that, gettit??? To me, if you feel like crying, go right ahead, you need it frankly. Don't think of it as showing our weakness, think of it as a reliever so that you'd feel much better cuz trust me, big girls do cry.