damn u metilxanthine aka cafein

Good nyte oh hey y'all. What cha doin? I am in a total darkness. Kick it slow on the floor, trying to wait for the drowsiness to dominate. Having a company tonight, let her take control of my bed. Not that lass E doesn't own a bed. The fact that all of her housemates have broke free from the days of mental torture and flew back to our dear sweet country brought her here. If she weren't here, she would've to stay in her lonely house where there is no one that she could talk to.

Suppose to be having the same fate with lass E, but a housemate, lass Z decided to stay here longer. Good to have at least someone that you could talk to. I couldn't imagine myself being all alone in a desserted house full of weird noises. Noises that you could hardly hear when the house is full of people. Not weird ones though, I'm talkin about the sound of the car drumming outside, the water tap, the breezy air comin from the stand fan.

Damn, I shouldn't be having hot moccacino just now. Guess what it does to my adrenergic nerves conduction? I don't really take cafein, but recently, I manage to convince myself that cafein is no God. If my brain cell is supposedly effected by the dose of cafein then let it be. Good exam performance doesn't confirm it's availability even if I do avoid caffein. Ok, I'm startin to get a little drowsy. A ferocious yawn has finally gave in the stop sign. I should go to sleep now. Gaga.. need to wake up early and get myself ready for the day after today.

Wish I could say happy greetings to those who have safely arrived in Msia. To enjoy their fully deserved days of a getaway from this fun parasit and stressing days here as a 2nd year med student. I wouldn't bother that much though (the fact that I don't get to go back early). I really need this chance. The chance of improving myself. It's a lost if I go back home now. Sometimes sacrifice is the only way to survive. If I have to sacrifice constantly then be it, cuz I have thought thoroughly back when I chosed this path, that I will be ready to meet up with frets and failure. Btw, things have always followed my leads and demands. It's time now that I learn to adapt to it. I never look that down on myself, we can still have hopes and dreams. Don't despair, you're not the most unfortunate in this damp n cold blooded world. Have faith in HIM. iA. salam