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Here is a pathetic story.

Being in a girl school for 5 years have alienated me from being friends with the males. I did say that I am allergic to boys, it's true, however I do really want to make friends with them. It's just that I don't have the 'guy's best friend' attitude and quality. I am not cool nor funny, in fact I'm clumsy around them. God knows how hard it is for me to keep my cool.

Today, I tagged everyguy in my batch into a photo. There weren't much of a comment from the guys except for G who is of course, very much particular of every other people's comments and posts. Though, I'm so sure that if it weren't my picture, which is in my photo album, lot'sa guys would've commented. I feel so dissapointed.

I've always wanted to have a guy who I can call bestfriend. Just like Hilary duff's best-guy-pal in CINDERELLA STORY. The one who she can spill everything to, someone who wouldn't fail to wish her a birthday and say whatever that he has on his mind. He doesn't have to be a boyfriend as in 'lover'. All I want is just a friend. Unfortunately, no guy ever think that I am ideal enough after all that I did for them. I don't expect much... just a friendship. Or maybe because I'm just shallow and beneath them.