what and who made you...

before dieting

Why do I so much want to get myself skinny? Haha, nobody has ever asked that. Coz they're pretty sure that I'll say I want to look good for an answer. But sincerely, NO, that's wrong.

Some other people might assume that I am trying to impress guys. That is basicly what happens when a girl try to slim down, cuz they want to impress their bf. Unfortunately, that's not it either, cuz I don't have one to impress, lol. SO, dig deeper, what could be the reason for this sudden change and determination to actually suffer from lack of good food.

Wanting to be healthy would be one of the factors, but the effort to urge myself from avoiding good food needs strong reason for me to apply that for like almost a year now. Yess, it's almost a year that I hardly eat RICE.

after dieting

my hot looking cousin, Iye

This could be the reason,...well not significantly, but here goes the story.. Last year aidilfitri eid which was in august, I finally went back to Kedah after few years with mama and met baba there at Mak Long's house. Apparently, he was not satisfied with how I looked then, I was MAYBE unlike his niece, Nazeera aka Iye who is to me, extremely hot. Just look at her body figure, who wouldn't dreamt of a body figure like that?, supermodel like. I swear if you see her face to face, you can see how much she resembles BEYONCE. I really mean it!!!

Okey, back to my story... My point is that baba wants me to look very presentable like my cousins or in another word, skinny. So, I got fed up and felt so challenged that I got so determined to go on a diet. So fortune of me, that luckily I'm not very much exposed to good food like I've always been in KL. Dieting in Jakarta couldn't be any easier cuz the foods seem to be (+_+)..enough said.

Second to that is my genetic. Have you seen relatives from my mum's side? You could already imagine how I'd look like in later years to come just by looking at my mum. Honestly, so many people said that we look alike AND most of my cousins who was skinny became HUGE after giving birth, so there is no need to deny anymore. I am so totally gonna resemble mum for definite or in another words, inherit the huge genetic from mum's side. So, that's MAYBE why baba wants me to maintain my weight as so to control my mum's gen.

Truthfully, I felt so sick of people wanting me to change appearance and to look good. But being slimmer however makes me even a happy person. I feel very much confident now. I can even wear anything I want and will not have trouble in finding the right size for outfits anymore.