To be

BELLE or MULAN?

Sometimes I can't help wondering, what majoritily type of girl that guys these days look forward to stand on one knee and propose to. What matters the most? Does it accord to their

A. same things in common with

B. attitude and background

C. simply beauty

Some acquaintances I know have been crushing on guys who seems to pretend-not-to-notice them even though they've been right under the guy's hairy noses for years. Befriended, yes.. but don't they know that these 'friends' could actually hold the title wives someday? Don't the girls deserve some chance? Why do they gotta be so choosy?

I've always thought that love wrapped with compassion and ribboned with sincerity overules, more than anything in the world. But I guess it doesn't bother some people when their crush suffers from an unrequited love, after all the crusher has done, including embarass themselves to get some attention (ohkay, that sounds d.e.s.p.e.r.a.t.e). Fooh, ok I think I've gone out of the border here.

What I really wanted to say is, is it really important to pretend to be someone what your crush might like? Or just be yourselves. If he's in, means he's in, but if he isn't, means you should keep on waiting for someone who will accept you just the way you are, but.... the bad news is, that guy is waaayyy not your taste. Huh, penat kan, nak pikir bende ni?

Maybe I shud just lay my head off this silly thing for now. Cuz I am on my way to decide that I shud not get married at all. That shud solve the problem. Marry no one, then your life would be as free as a bird. If you're starving, but you're tired, you don't have to cook, you can simply do take outs. But if you're a married woman, you'd have to cook for definite. SEE??

pLUZ, my aunt-who-is-a-doctor, survives perfectly well without a husband and child. She seems happy with her big bungalow and super sophisticated car. Owh, I love her life. Maybe, just maybe..this is my choice, ... SURVIVING ALONE.