u can stand under my umberella

Everywhere she goes, she'll definitely run into this guy who she has been admiring since their first semester in the university where they studied together. She was starting to feel terribly dissapointed with the situation that she is in right now. Only god knows how painful it is to love someone who doesn't love you back. She once told herself how she would be very fine with being dissapointed if he turns her down when she has at least let him know rather than being dissapointed cuz he is not into her for he is clueless about it. But after knowing the ragingly hurtful truth, she doesn't think that she could survive one night without having to activate her lacrimalis gland.

It's been ages ago, since this unreturned love bloomed. So many petals has been taken away by the cold and cruel wind, buds come raining in, wetting it and dry continuosly, yet she couldn't find the way to forget him. No other guy could outwin her heart more than he could. He is all that she thinks about, yes it seems to put people under the impression of how shallow she must be. But who cares, she can't fight it. She wants to forget and she tried many times before but it's no use. Doing the housemanship in the same hospital together spoiled her intention to get rid of him from her dreamy head, that is certainly not what she had in mind.

'I have to move... Apply to change into another teaching hospital.... I can't live like this' she monologs to herself. She is very much haunted by this sickening heartslitting feeling. After giving much tought of pros and cons of moving, she made her decision. Solid and ultimate.

Ring...ring ring...ring.

Rose : hello...
Mama: Salam, sayang. how r u?
Rose : Wslm, I'm fine thank you ma
Mama: Ok, u busy there?
Rose : Umm, kinda.
Mama: Ok then, I'll just make this simple. Ada orang masuk meminang sayang.
Rose : Oh huh, whaaaattt??? R u serious?
Mama: Yesss, orang kedah ni. Belah ayah. Henseeemmm
Rose : Gelap x? Penang ka?ade indian look?
Mama: Sory sayang, ini bulan teghang bukan gerhana.
Rose : Ek, humm (sigh~)
Mama: Ok, when u get back, we'll discuss bout this later k. In the mean time, just don't worry. Ok sayang, I love you, salam, bye.

tut..tut..tut


Without realizing, drops of tears came flowing out uncontrollably. No words could describe her now. It is neither happy nor upset. Or maybe, either happy or upset. Both blended in like Walls Vienetta brownies. At this point of time, she knew that she must make a serious alteration in her life.... and that is to forget him.

TO BE CONTINUED....