I Got U ^part 2^

Both, Rose and Az stumbled from the inside of Hospital Putrajaya emergency entrance. Waiting still and stood awkwardly, suddenly Az broke the silence and composed a voice to Rose.

"nak balik ke? " "nak balik la ni, tapi hujan pulak, tak berani nak bawak kete dalam hujan lebat mcm ni"

"ooo, urmmm.... kalau aq hantar ko balik nak x?"

"and leave my car here?"

"on monday i'll pick u up too"

Rose gave a long thought, few awkward things lingered in her head, unknown why. First and foremost is why in the world is this guy talking to her in the first place? It always has to be important things if they are to converse. She didn't think that her matter or problem is any of importance to him and he could have just mobilized away without bothering about her. Yet, this girl is definitely no plain Jane, this'll be like a gold opportunity to get closer to Az. So, blushingly she said "emm..ok lah".

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Then there is the awkward and painful silence again. Being sit close next to Az in his car is something beyond her expectation. She smiled widely inside as if a sun rises cheerfully in her. But then she came to a gloom world for a sudden thought about the reality. Az came to a halt to start a conversation after a few steal of glances.

"Kenapa macam sedih je?"

"Ha?... nampak macam sedih ke?, Memang pon, tengah fikir masa depan, kena buat keputusan tapi masa suntuk"

"Urm? ade orang masuk meminang ke?"

"Eh mane tau ni?"

"Lucky guess.. so ape masalahnye?"

Without knowing what really to say, she thought hard to make time to arrange the right words in her head.

"Tak tahulah nak terima ke tak, what do you think? Shud I or shud I not go for it?"

"Eh apsal pulak tanye aq, ko yang kena buat keputusan. Tapi kalau tanye aq gak, I'd say why not. Kite tak tahu future, maybe kite akan bahagia dengan orang tu".

"Really? Sure?"

Rose was really furious by what Az said, how could a guy she loves tell her to marry someone else. Doesn't he know that she is madly in love with him? Or is he being sarcastic like he always does. He didn't even seem surprise nor threaten, supposedly he never likes her after all. Then, she felt a tingling feeling, being very dissapointed with him. Then she felt like playing games with him.

"What about you?, When are you going to propose sumeone?"

"Me? hahaha, soon kot"

"Oh?"

Rose felt as if something hard just hit her face.

If what he said was for real, this means that he'll be someone else's, and that can't be good, Rose monologed to herself. She looked down for the rest of the journey and she didn't feel like to continue the conversation even when Az tried to. She had to hold herself from losing control in front of him.

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THUMPPP.. she bumped on her laced roses bedsheet and pressed her square pillow hard against her face. She can't hold it anymore, she cried all night long. Hoping all she had heard was just a mere nightmare. But it was real indeed.

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"Rose, macam mane ni sayang? Rose tak tengok lagi calon yang datang merisik Rose. Cube la sayang tengok, mane tau berkenan ke? Tak tengok tak tahu. I'm sorry it didn't work out between you and Az"

"Ma, Rose terima je lah ma, xpayah tanye Rose lagi. Suruh je dia datang meminang bila2 je. Nak tunang terus pon xpe".

"Eh, Rose ni biar betul? Tak mau tengok gambar dulu ke? Tengok background dia ke? Dia ni doktor jugak sayang."

"Emm, x kisah la mama, ape yang baik bagi mama, baiklah bagi Rose"

It never bother her at all of how the future fiancee might look like or be like. She just seems to so lost, so can't be bothered with anything. All she knew was that she is very much rejected by Az and nothing seems to be meaningful anymore. Lots of years of waiting for an answer from a crush has now seems to be thrown in the drain. A bummer ending. There is nothing more that she could do either unless accept someone new in her life who would love her more than she does. That'd be something different apart from chasing after a crush after all these years. She finally smiled for a happy future to come.

.............TO BE CONTINUED.........

I Got U ^part 1^

It was raining cats and dogs out there. It's been raining since in the dawn. Rose pulled a face, her predictions of the wether was accurate, now she has to wait for the rain to stop so that she can go home. The rain storm season has been going on pretty heavily lately in her location.

She stopped staring out the hospital transparent door and sat at the bench near by. Laid back to the wall and closed her eyes hoping the rain to at least go slow on the ground dirt. So at least, she could drive home safely. With the wether plus the dark, there's no way she had the nerve to pull a drive on her own.

Fell asleep and woke up 15 minutes later, still the rain poured heavier than ever. She looked at the wall clock and made another huge sigh. She got up and headed to the surau. Took up wudhuk and pray. After the prayer, she sat still and had sickening flashbacks of what happened this morning at the cafeteria.

Her crush A, had a pretty good time breakfasting with his best friend, J. Her daily life has never missed up a second rush of heart tearing episodes. Sometimes she thought she could handle it, but the truth reveals when she comes home with frown face almost everyday. She just wished that she can throw the sack of the past memories away, the ones that contains misery, humiliation, envy, jealousy, backstabs or just anything that includes him in the scene.

This love she has for him has overgrown, so powerful, so strong but it has no ability of controlling itself. It can't die, vanish, nor disappear out of thin air. Gallons of tears dripped not bothered. If only he knew how much this love meant to him. But he doesn't care, a guy like him won't care cause he is a guy with options. He's the type who can choose not chosen. Rose gave up to these thoughts of self-pity, she's too pathetic to bring up her dignity. But all these while, she just gave herself another strong 'i don't need a man' head voice to shut the pathetic one up so she can finally live and to actually concentrate on her job if she happens to bump into him whenever.

Rose put away the neatly folded telekung away and walked out of the surau when she suddenly saw the face of her heart keeper. She mumbled 'ohmygod' and startled for a bit, put her shoes on fast and rushed off. It's always been like that, when they meet, she'd be like stunned all static like having just the thoughts of how charming this guy is. She'd be smiling all the way, in a certain days, the smile wouldn't fall off her face for the whole day, depends on how he reacts. Sometimes, if he makes a stern face, she'd be dissapointed having the thoughts of him hating her.

With light hearted feeling, she went back to the bench and continue waiting.

TO BE CONTINUED.....

Rose and Gingerbread man

Setelah isteri kesayangannya menghembuskan nafas terakhir, dia merenung arwah isterinya itu sambil menggenggam erat tangan dan jari jemari yang halus dan mencium dahi isterinya buat kali yang terakhir.

Dia mendakap bayi perempuannya yang baru beberapa minit dilahirkan kedunia itu dan melihat wajah bayi itu yang kelihatan tenang. Air matanya menitik di atas wajah bayi perempuan tunggalnya itu lalu cuba mengumpulkan serpihan kekuatan yang baru pecah berderai apabila nyawa isteri tercintanya itu tidak dapat diselamatkan. Dia tewas ketika melahirkan bayi perempuan sulungnya.

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Azim terus menitiskan air matanya apabila melihat foto kenangannya bersama Baizura disisi bangunan Taj Mahal yang tersergam indah ketika mereka bercuti ke India, pertama kali setelah berkahwin. "It's been my dream to come visit here sayang, thank you for bringing me here, I love you" Itu lah kata2 arwah isteri yang masih diingatnya sehingga kini walaupun setelah 20 tahun peristiwa itu berlalu.

Sedang dia mengesat air matanya yang berkaca-kaca, tiba-tiba pintu kamarnya dibuka. Anak gadis yang kelihatan manis dan comel berkaca mata berusia 20 tahun menampakkan kepalanya di pintu. "Papa, Rose dah balikkk!! Sambil berjalan menuju ke katil papanya, ros mengheret sebuat boneka 'gingerbread man" ditangannya lalu duduk selamba di atas katil 'kingsize papanya'.

"Papaaa, malam ni kite kuar makan boleh takkk? Rose teringin nak mkn kat luar hikhik pastu kite beli kek jugak celebrate birthday Rose, boleh la papa..boleh laaa" Azim senyum tidak berkata apa-apa, dia masih teringat akan arwah isterinya yang mempunyai wajah yang mirip benar dengan anak perempuan tunggalnya itu. Dia sangat bahagia adanya Rose disisinya.

PaPAAA!! Papa dengar tak ape Rose cakap ni?

Eh, iyee papa dengar..yelah2 memang papa nak ajak makan luar pon malam ni... hmm, lepas maghrib siap tao.

"Btw, papa, is this suppose to be my birthday present, I found it on my bed along with the card?" Dia mengajuk ke arah boneka 'gingerbread man' yang bertali di leher sambil mengangkatnya kepada bapanya. "Why does it look.... ermm... old? "
Azim tidak menjawab pertanyaan anaknya itu, dan sepertinya dia mengelamun sebentar.

Hmm...tak pe lah. Sambil mengherotkan mulutnya, Rose bangun dari katil papanya dan menuju keluar pintu dan menutupnya kembali.

Hubungan Azim dan Rose sangat rapat, sejak dari kecil Rose sentiasa di manjakan dan di berikan kasih sayang yang tak ternilai. Namun begitu, sikap Azim yang tegas menjadikan Rose seorang yang sentiasa berjaya dalam pelajaran. Kini dia menuntut di Universiti Malaya dalam bidang perubatan. Setiap hari dia akan berulang alik ke universiti dengan kereta yang dihadiahkan bapanya itu ketika dia berjaya mendapatkan tempat dalam bidang yang diimpikannya. Dia mahu menjadi seorang doktor, sama seperti bapa dan arwah mamanya.

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Azim sedang menonton televisyen siri kegemarannya sejak zaman muda mudinya dahulu, 'house'. Kemudian dia di dekati Rose yang baru sahaja selesai mencuci pinggan selesai makan malam mereka.
Papa, semalam Rose belek-belek 'gingerbread man' yang papa bagi tu. Kenapa kat tali leher gingerbread man tu ade tulis "zim amo"? Pelik lah, papa yang tulis ke? Yang pelik lagi, nape benda tu nampak macam mainan lama?

Azim termenung apabila soalan berkaitan boneka itu di ajukan kepadanya.

Papaaa, why don't you answer me? What's there in your mind?

Azim, menyedari dirinya termenung jauh lalu menarik nafas dalam dan memulakan penjelasannya.
Rose, anak papa... gingerbread tu kepunyaan arwah mama kamu. Papa simpan patung tu dah lame dah, papa sayang nak buang. Patung tu arwah mama kamu beli ketika umur dia 21 tahun. Waktu tu kami muda lagi, that makes me 20 tahun. Papa dan mama studi dalam fac yang sama. Pada mulanya kami kenal bila kelas sama sem 1st then masing2 bertukar kelas. Papa dah lame minat mama kamu dan bertuahnya papa sebab mama kamu pun suke papa jugak. Cuma mama kamu tak tahu yang papa suke pada dia jugak, mama kamu merajuk. Papa decide nak tumpukan pada studi dulu dan papa berazam nak meminang mama bila habis studi nanti. Mama kamu at the same time struggle belajar.

Papa tak sangka yang mama kamu betul-betul sayang kat papa. Dia seorang yang caring, periang dan sangat cantik..hihi mcm kamu laa. Sewaktu dia beli gingerbread man tu, dia tulis nama papa pada tali, katanya sebab dia takmo lupakan papa dalam hidup dia, sungguhpun kalau papa tak pernah suka pada dia. That's what she told me after I married her few years later.

Oh ye ke? huiyoo...gatal juga arwah mama yek?

Bukan gatal sayangg, tapi pasionate. Arwah mama kamu kalau dah jatuh cinta, seorang tu la dia akan tunggu sampai bila2.

is it you?

It's her first day of posting as a residence doctor in Hospital Serdang, Malaysia after finally passing from her long draught years as a Co-assistant in Jakarta Indonesia, where she spent whole lot of her youth years finishing her medical degree.

There are so much to learn and so much to observe. You see, the system will be slightly different in Malaysia's hospital compared to Indonesia's Rumah Sakit. She'll have to make use of her time maximumly to learn from the basic once again. Like it or not, she'll have to face all sorts of crazy bitchy attitudes from the senior or veteran doctors. Well, in order to survive, you'll just have to play along and act stupid, I mean that you have to admit that you're stupid instead of acting innocent and know it all. That's just the rule of in and out of it. Just take into account, that one day, you're the one who will be a senior doctor and start to manage fresh residence under you.

Rose came as early as 6 am, even when she is suppose to be reporting herself at 7 am, she just hates to be late. It's in one of her principe, it gets on her nerves if she happens to be late or having to make anyone wait for her. As the sun started to rise, she meets up with lots of candidates and senior doctors and even Co-assistants, starting their day as usual.

Rose with other fresh residence doctors was showed around the hospital rooms, ICUs, ERs and how the system usually works there. She felt kinda excited about everything. She remembers how she use to pass by Serdang Hospital and wave from the road side, now she gets to work inside there as a doctor.



She gets to make new acquaintances theogh out the day. Learning new things and adapting to it. It is rather tiring, but it's feels great to get tired when you do things that you love.

Rose was having few minutes break when a man in a snell coat stops in front of her to talk to a nurse. He has to be a senior, since he seems to be busy with his stethoscope hanging around his neck, rushing towards somewhere. Rose stared at this stranger for a while, half stunned, half admire for this man is quite a good looking person. He has fair skin tone, spectacled with chinese look, he has such a cute face with thick pink lips. He is rather tall, has soft voice with malay tongue. That confuses her for a while. Her break finished and she had to leave for the hospital tour, and that cut her attention on the cute looking doctor.....

TO BE CONTINUED.....

You can stand under my umbrella VIII (last part)

Kamarul grabbed his waja keys and stormed out of his house. He started the engine and strum away with the highest gear. Jln. Mamanda 13, Taman Dato’ Ahmad Razali was echoed by the sound of his Waja. His feelings controlled his actions. There is just nothing stopping him anymore.

The piece of memory of Reezwan revealing everything to him stinged him hard. It’s still fresh that he can remember everything as if he is hearing it at this very moment. Wan have told him of how Rose was not even certain of her feelings towards her fiancee’ and that her engagement was sort of like a way to get Kamarul out of her head. That she will probably make a big mistake that’ll effect the rest of her life by marrying the guy she never love, today.

He was nervous of what her reaction will be to his plan to crush her wedding. He calmed himself down and tried to figure out the best gentle way to enter the wedding, get her to come back to her senses and stop the mistakeful wedding.

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Far across the bunch of highways is where the wedding ceremony is being held. People are starting to squeeze themselves in the house of Rose. Tok kadi has just arrived. As of until today, he has gathered 98 couples through out his days as a tok kadi. He will be adding Rose and Danial to that count.

Rose was in her room, stunningly dressed and accessorised. She stared into the mirror in front of her, telling herself how great that day was going to be that no where else that she’d rather be then here, ready to be united with his future husband, Danial. Her decision was solid.
She peeped outside, trying to catch a glimpse of Danial. The guests have already settled down, sitted. She has started to feel really nervous for in any minute now, she’ll be asked to come out and join her guests.

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Kamarul topped up his speed. He was afraid if he wouldn’t make it. His head was not focused with driving. Too many things inside that his feelings were all mixed up. He loves this girl so much, afraid of losing her. A girl whom he had been very selfish to, years ago. A girl who he knew once cared for him. A girl who had saved his life and nearly been killed by the attempt. A girl who has lost an ovary because of the attempt. It would all be his fault.

He cannot control his feelings that he burst into tears. It would be his biggest fault if he doesn’t reach on time. He was so determined that he didn’t realize the traffic light in front of him turned red. He blew past it and maintained with his speed. Suddenly there was the loud bang came echoing in the junction. Without realizing it, he was hit by another car came in from his left. The driver seat was badly crushed caused by the collision.

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It was her first night as a wife. She was surrounded by her family sat in the living room chit chatting happily with Danial by her side. The news came in on the television. Everyone new they have to slow down chatting for awhile and focused on the news. There was an accident involving two cars, a Waja and a Honda civic. The Waja driver were murdered at the scene.

“ The unfortunate car crash victim named Kamarul Bin Md Nor Rasyid, 26, was known to be on his way to Kajang when he failed to obey the red light and being crashed my another car coming from the left. The driver seat was directly hit causing Kamarul to pass away at once. His body was taken to Serdang hospital to be investigated further.”

As from when Rose heard the name, the name of her unbeatable crush, a crush that she had fallen so much in love with, an unbearable tears came out. She burst into tears, so hard that not even the presence of Danial could hold her back. Her whole world seems to shut down for a while that she has no will to be strong.

“Dear Kamarul,

there is nothing that could ever take my love away from you. Truthfully, my love for you has never fade. It has always been you, underneath this heart since the day we met on our refreshment year. It was the most memorable moment, cuz the moment I look at you, I just knew that you're meant to be for me. Though, waiting for you is like waiting for the rain in the dry dessert. I never meant to hurt you. I want you to be happy, so I let go of this feelings for you. But you came attaching it back again. I just want you to know, that you can always stand under my umbrella.” -Love, Rose-

THE END

you can stand under my umbrella VII

K: Rose, may I please have a word with you?
R: I’m sorry, I don’t think so. I’m in a hurry… Got on calls. See you.

She tried to walk fast past him but he stood in her way for a few times that she couldn’t refuse having a word with him. Kamarul lead her to the hospital park, and they walked together, alone for the first time.

K: I’d like to say thank you for trying to save me. I admit that I was careless and impatient. It’s my fault. Please forgive me.

R: It’s not your fault at all. Allah izinkan saya selamatkan awak, awak patutnye berterima kasih pada Allah SWT sbb masih nak memberi awak peluang untuk beribadat di dunia ni.

K: Ya, saya bersyukur. Tapi Allah SWT pilih awak untuk selamatkan saya. Saya tertanya-tanya kenapa awak? Rose, I am sorry that I’ve never opened my eyes for you before. Would you give me a chance?

Rose gave Kamarul a smile. There were a long pause before she finally speaks up.

R: Do you know what it feels like to be so much in love? Do you know what it feels like to fall for someone who doesn’t bother to return your love? Not even a single word nor smile? (tears).

You cried when you see another girl gets close to your crush… Upset when he respons to her even by giving a simple nod… [higher tone]Thinking about him all day long wondering what his day went like and wether he is ok or not. If he has ever felt hungry, cold, lonely or upset. You wish that you could say to him that you are there if he ever needs you…

You didn’t even want to be friends with me, Rul. You didn’t give me any chance. In fact, you ran away from me as if I am a ragged doll [raining tears].

[Long and painful silence][Lower tone, shaking,merely heard].
Am I not beautiful enough for you, Rul ? Am I not bright enough compared to you? I don’t deserve you, I know..

[Solid, louder tone]
And now, you’re asking me to give you a chance after all these painful and disappointing years? [long pause] What you ask from me is something that I can never give.

Rul, I am engaged. You’re just a little too late. I'll be getting married soon. I am sorry. Please don’t come and look for me anymore.

She stood up and left him all alone. He was startled by those words that he sat static like and watched her go.There is simply nothing to say cuz he knew for a fact that she is…. Not available anymore.

TO BE CONTINUED...

you can stand under my umbrella VI

It was the time to eat. He was pretty hungry this morning since that he didn't have breakfast earlier this morning. His eyes was loitering around looking for Reezwan, his best buddy since they started their medical degree program. Suddenly Wan came out of no where.


W: Hoi! Makan?

K: Haa, just the right person that I'm looking for. A'ah, lapar ar. Pagi tadi tak sempat makan.

W: Aik? Hmm tu lah, orang suruh kawen tanak. Tengok cam aku ni, senang dah settle down, isteri masakkan.

K: Hei, could you please not change the subject?

W: Ok fine. Jom makan. (sat down). So, what is there to talk about?

K: The matter is that I still haven't give up on her.

W: Her who?

K: You know of who I talk about. Please Wan, you're my only chance. Nobody else knows where she is now.

W: What for? So that you could keep on breaking her heart? Please la Rul, if you just want to thank her for saving your neck, than it's better that you don't see her anymore. Dia memang tak nak tengok muke kau lagi. Aku harap kau faham lah

K: Wan, aku nak jumpa dia sangat2. I feel really bad for not realizing how much she cared for me before. The accident that night changed everything. Just give me a chance Wan.

W: If what you have for her is sympathy and guilt, just forget it. She doesn't need that.

K: What if I have more than that? Wan, I love her... I swear.


Wan was giving Kamarul his inconvincable stare. But he was sure of what Rose would have want him to do. So he gave in and gave Kamarul the greenlight.

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Rose have just finished her prayer in the brand new sophisticated surau built in Hospital Serdang. It was lunch time and she was about to head to the hospital canteen when suddenly a figure came out of no where, startling her. She was aware of that very person who was standing in front of her that she tried to hide part of her scarred face with her hand but it was too late, cuz he already saw it. Now, Kamarul felt even more guilty because he was the reason for the scar's existance. He realized what she was doing and he tried to make her feel comfortable with his appearance.

However, Rose was on the other side of the world. She felt so shy yet so nervous for she had not seen him for ages. She misses the face that she could never stop thinking about. Her face was all red, she was so shy that she hoped so much that she could just run far away from him. She had imagined before in one of her day dreaming moments, when her knight and shining armour would come for her, take her hand, down on one knee and whisper to her of how much he needs her. This could be it, this could be like in one of her day dreams that she had created spontaneously.

TO BE CONTINUED.....

you can stand under my umbrella V

Dunnnggg, the sound of the ICU door flipped open for a trauma victim in coming. Kamarul suddenly got woken up from his long dreamy thoughts. He couldn’t really believe what he had heard from Dr.Nasirah, the gynaecologist who had performed the surgery on Rose the night she had an accident. He nearly cried when she kindly explained about how Rose had lost one of her ovum as it had to be removed because it was badly damaged. Rose also had gone through serious bleeding complication that it put her life at a stake during the 6 hours surgery. He didn’t know that she had gone through such a major surgery that could have costed her life. Nasirah said that Rose had been better and she was perfectly stable last night and that she could get back on her normal life again, though she will be a bit different from any productive women since that she has only one ovum, her chance of getting a child is limited to 50% chance.

He couldn’t believe his ears until now. He was taken back by these facts. The fact that Rose went out of the hospital in such a sudden and the fact that she transfered herself into another teaching hospital in such a short notice without none of their collegues knowing why. He decided that he really needed to see her again no matter what cause he realized that he has owed this girl so much that his appreciation is undescribable.

On the next day, he was off to the admin office and looked for Dr. Reezwan, the head of the residence doctors. He inquired for Rose new posting location from Reezwan, unfortunately Wan told him that he doesn’t know and that the information are all kept private and confidential for the safety of the health workers. Kamarul and Wan has been such good and close buddies when they studied together, all three of them in Jakarta. In fact, Rose and Wan had been quite close with each other. Wan knew very well how Rose had fallen for Kamarul, in fact he was the one who told Kamarul that Rose fancies him. Unfortunate for Rose that Kamarul fancied another brighter and prettier girl.

Kamarul couldn’t be satisfied with Wan’s statement that he begged him in telling the address away. He told him how he was so stupid not to notice and appreciate Rose in his life before. How he had looked her half way cuz there was better options. How he had broke her heart with his fake signals and let her struggle in jealousy. How he had ignored her feelings an left her all undone. Wan knew where she was right then, whenever he felt like telling it away, he’d be remembering how Rose made him promise to make it secret about her new posting location especially from Kamarul simply cause she wants to erase him from her head and start a new life. Though Kamarul never gave up in Wan, eventhough he knew that Rose has hated him now and nothing could change the fact.


TO BE CONTINUED....

you can stand under my umbrella IV

It was a wet morning at Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Rahimah, the sun risen lazily. Kamarul was just done doing his last ward walking from one bed to another, before his breakfast early that morning. He took the time and made his way down on the lift and off to the trauma department floor. When he reached the receptionist table, the nurse already knew that he was going to come and mumbled to him, number of the room that he wanted to head to. He pushed the door with big letters ' ICU ' and looked for room number 4. He slided his skinny figure into the room and expect a familiar face.

A face that he would never wish to look at if it was not for the accident. A face that he had always ignored before. A face that he thought was irritating and abnoxious. A face whose love, he had turned down ages ago. Now all the memories between them years ago came floating in. He remembered how he had hurt this girl's innocent heart. But it was not his fault that the girl was into him and he didn't feel the same for her too. Love is not a material nor a victory that one can gain by working all out simply because it involves another stranger's heart. When two hearts feels the same for each other only then, can it be called love. Though he felt strangely affected for she had risk her life for him and he got the feeling that the very moment, love has finally rush in.

Soon, Rose's family member was informed of her misfortune in the accident. They came and visited her. The room was never empty for visitors, day and night. So he never had the chance to
see her cause he didn't want to interrupt them. Besides, he was busy with his own shifts. Life as a residence doctor has never been comforting. The word hang out and chillex has all gone from his current life. Though, he felt satisfied for he has so high compassion for this sacred job that he's been working hard for since he was a child
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Kamarul came early to the hospital today, bright day, he was cheerfully happy and excited yet anxious. He decided that he would want to make a move and meet up with Rose's relatives and most importantly, Rose. He got on the lift and hit the ICU level button. He was alone in the lift and took the chance to see his reflection in the clear water lift wall, he saw an average tall, dark and handsome looking guy staring back at him, smiling. He got out of the lift and greeted the receptionist counter nurse, friendly but before he could slide the ICU door open, the nurse told him that Rose has been given release form last night. Not just that, surprisingly she was already transfered to another teaching hospital.

He was speechless and clueless of such matter, he was wondering why she was transfered. He felt so heartbroken suddenly. So heartbroken that his face impression changed. That made the nurse tried to console him. There were more concerning Rose that she would like to tell him.


TO BE CONTINUED.......

you can stand under my umbrella III

Blood was splurting everywhere. The car eventually stopped, in front of it lies unfortunate Rose, unmoved. Her white face and lively red blouse was all covered in cherry red blood. Eyes closed, she was unconscious. Only god knows weather the heart within still have the will to survive or not.

The busy road became all quiet and static like, the world revolved seems to stop for a few minutes. Some vehicle stopped and parked nearby, some just mobilize away. The by stander were all crowding and rushing towards where Rose lies. The first person to hold her to his lap was the person whose life she had just saved. He was still quite shocked and confused of what just happened. He hold her cold hand, looked for her carotid artery pulse and pull a big sigh of relief when he felt the artery palpation. He sent someone to get help from the hospital.

For a second, he felt so sorry for Rose, maybe something even more than that. He felt so affected by her unbelievable yet bold action of saving his life. While watching the paramedic stroll her away in a stretcher, his tears came dribbling down his bruised cheek. He didn't want to be apart from her, so he followed them inside the ER.

Doctors was trying their best to save her since that her pulse seems to be slowing down. The long distance from T to P peak on her ECG reading showed that she was having bradycardia. This is caused by the elevation of her vagal tonous and the reason for her unconsciousness. She was given atropin through intravenous injection. But that wasn't the end of it. The specialist incharge asked him to wait outside. He wasn't informed of the bleeding complication that Rose might've developed. The operation was not completed until 12 at midnight. He realized that he was late for his night shift as a resident doctor that he had to leave her and attend to his patients. He was given wound bandage on his injured hand and he was off to work, imbalance emotionally. He was afraid that if he wouldn't be able to say what he's been keeping from Rose.

TO BE CONTINUED....

u can stand under my umbrella II

Splash! The sound of cold chill water slapping her fair skinned face gently. She bathed and get dressed slowly. Tonight, she has a workshift and her job is to look after the in coming night patients starting from 7 pm tonight until 7 pm a day after. She was having this sort of like a weird feeling today since in the morning. It came along with grunting stomach which told her that she really need to eat something desperately. Therefore, she put on a red blouse today, to motivate herself. So, she went down and grab a few bars of Nestle Muesli Bar, chocolate flavour, her all time fave.

While munching all the way to the bus stop, suddenly her weird feeling got worst. Her heart pounds rapidly, more than usual. Before she could reach the bus stop, a bus came approaching from behind her. She lifted her arms and gave her watch a glance. The bus is early tonight, she tought to herself and ran towards the bus to catch it.

Rose felt the rapid heart beat and the weird feeling became even weirder all the time along the journey. She looked at her lively red blouse hoping to be injected by a spirit. It gave her a little induction, but she already knew that it wouldn't last long. So, she prayed for Allah's protection so that she wouldn't bring along her 'heavy grey cloud' into the hospital. Anything personal shouldn't be mixed up with work. Especially when it can effect a patient's soul.

She reached her destination and get off the bus and started crossing the road towards a big sombre, green building with a huge sign 'HOSPITAL TENGKU AMPUAN RAHIMAH, KLANG. Front of the hospital, where lies one of the busiest road in Klang. She needed to cross the busy road since that the bust stop is located at the opposite of the hospital. She was glancing at her watch, which indicates that she was 5 minutes late already.The traffic light was red, everyone was waiting for the pedestrian green light. Suddenly, there is this one person, out of no where who seems to be in a hurry and crush the busy road without waiting for the green light. That figure is very fimilar to Rose, she was starting to be worried for a hell of boldness that this person was trying to play at. He was trying to run as fast as possible, but a car was too fast for him. The sound of the car hitting the emergency break was a 'eardrum hurting' loud. Rose just couldn't be a by stander. She moved her feet, ran towards the person and pushed him to the road side. Unfortunately, the car lost it's control and hit her instead.

TO BE CONTINUED....

u can stand under my umberella

Everywhere she goes, she'll definitely run into this guy who she has been admiring since their first semester in the university where they studied together. She was starting to feel terribly dissapointed with the situation that she is in right now. Only god knows how painful it is to love someone who doesn't love you back. She once told herself how she would be very fine with being dissapointed if he turns her down when she has at least let him know rather than being dissapointed cuz he is not into her for he is clueless about it. But after knowing the ragingly hurtful truth, she doesn't think that she could survive one night without having to activate her lacrimalis gland.

It's been ages ago, since this unreturned love bloomed. So many petals has been taken away by the cold and cruel wind, buds come raining in, wetting it and dry continuosly, yet she couldn't find the way to forget him. No other guy could outwin her heart more than he could. He is all that she thinks about, yes it seems to put people under the impression of how shallow she must be. But who cares, she can't fight it. She wants to forget and she tried many times before but it's no use. Doing the housemanship in the same hospital together spoiled her intention to get rid of him from her dreamy head, that is certainly not what she had in mind.

'I have to move... Apply to change into another teaching hospital.... I can't live like this' she monologs to herself. She is very much haunted by this sickening heartslitting feeling. After giving much tought of pros and cons of moving, she made her decision. Solid and ultimate.

Ring...ring ring...ring.

Rose : hello...
Mama: Salam, sayang. how r u?
Rose : Wslm, I'm fine thank you ma
Mama: Ok, u busy there?
Rose : Umm, kinda.
Mama: Ok then, I'll just make this simple. Ada orang masuk meminang sayang.
Rose : Oh huh, whaaaattt??? R u serious?
Mama: Yesss, orang kedah ni. Belah ayah. Henseeemmm
Rose : Gelap x? Penang ka?ade indian look?
Mama: Sory sayang, ini bulan teghang bukan gerhana.
Rose : Ek, humm (sigh~)
Mama: Ok, when u get back, we'll discuss bout this later k. In the mean time, just don't worry. Ok sayang, I love you, salam, bye.

tut..tut..tut


Without realizing, drops of tears came flowing out uncontrollably. No words could describe her now. It is neither happy nor upset. Or maybe, either happy or upset. Both blended in like Walls Vienetta brownies. At this point of time, she knew that she must make a serious alteration in her life.... and that is to forget him.

TO BE CONTINUED....

7 YEARS AGO by fairuz

Rose was just having her last warm welcoming words with one of her university mates who came to her opening bakery ceremony. It has been an extremely tiring week filled with the opening ceremony work. Now, at this moment, more than ever, she felt so relieved that she will soon have the chance to lay down her big busy butt after the entire week of sleepless nights.

While having this pleasure thought to herself, suddenly she saw a fimiliar yet an unbelievable figure. That face seems to stop her tired epiglottis from swallowing her saliva with ease. She was stunned with the appearance of the average tall, dark and handsome guy who is now staring at her, yet she tried to look cool. It was an uneasy feeling, cuz he was staring at her and she hesitated to reply the stare. As soon as she has completed her recall process of who that charming looking bloke was, she turned her face away and her heart started to pound hard.

At this point, she has recalled almost everything about the guy who was once involved in her miserable life ages ago. He was the pretty guy who made her fell so much in love with 7 years ago, he was the guy who made her smile almost everyday 7 years ago, he was the guy who turned her into a clumsy clown each time when he was around 7 years ago, he was the guy who she couldn't really stop thinking and talking about 7 years ago, he was also the guy who hurt her feelings and made her cry by making her assume that she is not the only one who felt 'it'. She closed her heart for him ages ago and assumed that they are never meant to be together.

But what brings him here today? She thought as she made her way to the desert racks to get a guest to chat with. Suddenly, the fimiliar guy approached her and greeted her with the most charming smile she has ever seen.

Guy: Assalamualaikum, how are you?
Rose: W'slm, I'm fine thank you.
Guy : What a success this bakery of yours gonna be.
Rose: Insyallah, thanks. You are Kamarul right?
Guy: Wow, I'm surprise that you still remember.
Rose: How, could I not? We studied oversea together for almost 5 and a half years.
Guy: Yeah, I guess....

The conversation came out rising like the spirited flame until an unexpected question blurted out by Kamarul that made Rose felt a little uneasy.

Guy: So Rose, are you available if say, a guy is interested in buying you a ring right?

That surely, made her strain hard for the accurate meaning and answer to that "there could be many meaning and respon" question.Blinking her eyes speechless two or more times and try to find her lost voice and gear up to say

" Kamarul, there is something that you haven't discovered bout me yet. I just got engaged last month".

Kamarul's eyes widened and then it was his turn to be lost for words. There seems to be a regret look on his beautiful black eyes.

Rose called for Damien, her fianc'ee, a tall, dark and hansome man, a person who resembles Kamarul a lot, however he has even better looks. He stared at him as if he was about to wrestle Damien on the floor right at the time. He was so impressed. Rose, cut in his glaring moment and introduced them. Then, Rose told Kamarul to enjoy the ceremony and left along with her fianc'ee to greet some more guests.

Now, more than ever, he wished that he had never dissapointed and ignored her 7 years ago. Seeing the happy couple, he went out of the bakery with small deep tears.