you can stand under my umbrella VII

K: Rose, may I please have a word with you?
R: I’m sorry, I don’t think so. I’m in a hurry… Got on calls. See you.

She tried to walk fast past him but he stood in her way for a few times that she couldn’t refuse having a word with him. Kamarul lead her to the hospital park, and they walked together, alone for the first time.

K: I’d like to say thank you for trying to save me. I admit that I was careless and impatient. It’s my fault. Please forgive me.

R: It’s not your fault at all. Allah izinkan saya selamatkan awak, awak patutnye berterima kasih pada Allah SWT sbb masih nak memberi awak peluang untuk beribadat di dunia ni.

K: Ya, saya bersyukur. Tapi Allah SWT pilih awak untuk selamatkan saya. Saya tertanya-tanya kenapa awak? Rose, I am sorry that I’ve never opened my eyes for you before. Would you give me a chance?

Rose gave Kamarul a smile. There were a long pause before she finally speaks up.

R: Do you know what it feels like to be so much in love? Do you know what it feels like to fall for someone who doesn’t bother to return your love? Not even a single word nor smile? (tears).

You cried when you see another girl gets close to your crush… Upset when he respons to her even by giving a simple nod… [higher tone]Thinking about him all day long wondering what his day went like and wether he is ok or not. If he has ever felt hungry, cold, lonely or upset. You wish that you could say to him that you are there if he ever needs you…

You didn’t even want to be friends with me, Rul. You didn’t give me any chance. In fact, you ran away from me as if I am a ragged doll [raining tears].

[Long and painful silence][Lower tone, shaking,merely heard].
Am I not beautiful enough for you, Rul ? Am I not bright enough compared to you? I don’t deserve you, I know..

[Solid, louder tone]
And now, you’re asking me to give you a chance after all these painful and disappointing years? [long pause] What you ask from me is something that I can never give.

Rul, I am engaged. You’re just a little too late. I'll be getting married soon. I am sorry. Please don’t come and look for me anymore.

She stood up and left him all alone. He was startled by those words that he sat static like and watched her go.There is simply nothing to say cuz he knew for a fact that she is…. Not available anymore.

TO BE CONTINUED...