be that as it may

There has to be the gold beneath the slump and smelly gold mine. Being in a remedial classes was such a bad idea that it made me cried so hard when I get to find out that I had to take it. But when I am actually in it, I feel that all the misery thought has suddenly vanished. I tend to love pharmacology so much. In fact, I am beginning to put it into serious thinking as my specialisation scope. This is cuz, as insane as it sounds, I talk about pharmacology classes to my friends excitedly, as if I am talking about boys. Tell me that's weird.

You know how you love it when you feel like your brain is synchronize to the lecturers brain. As if you know what she's gonna say next. I have that feeling during pharmaco classes.

During the group discussions back few months ago, I was the passive type who had no idea of what the brilliant people was talking about. I was so bumped, cuz I hate being left out in intellectuals conversations. Hate it when you have to be the stupid one. You just sit there and act pretty while the others are concentrating hard on finding the best drug choice for the cases. But now, I feel much more alive cuz I don't just sit there and act pretty, in fact, I become my group's verterbrate. The one who tells which one's which while the others are pretty damn clueless. I am not boasting, but it just feels great that I am able to cope up well this time. All I'm saying is you are gonna appreciate something better when you've finally know them well.