I am sorry

I don't get it, I just don't. Truthfully, this is really really bothering me. I am binded my a feel of guilty towards everyone who made this happened years ago. I would love to apologize to these people below for my excessively bad study performance. Firstly:

1. MARA(Majlis Amanah Rakyat)

-who have given this opportunity to further my dream course.
-who was there to help and support when I was robbed last year.
-who supported my monthly allowance nonstop eventhough it was seriously never enough for I have to think hard how you pple could've been unfair towards us, compared to other overseas students..god your cheap!

2. Mama, Ayah dan Baba

-Sorry to have dissapointed you especially baba who really wants to see me become a doctor. I 'm sorry, maybe it's your dream, not mine.
- Thank for supporting me from the very start, listening to my cries nad tears nonstop, giving me faith, trusting in me. Thanks mom, I am so lucky to have a mother like you and I really mean it. I love you so much. I gotta thank god endlessly for providing me such a great mother like no other. Thanks for understanding. What I trully regret is for dissapointing you. Believe me, I never meant to.
- Thanks ayah, for realizing this dream. Making everything possible and comfortable for me. You hardly say no to my every wishes. Life wouldn't have been easier without you..

3. Abang

- my all time inspiration, thanks for your support and your teachings. I learn most of the meaning of life through you. You seem to light my way through our times growing together side by side. You're a great brother! I love you.

4. Balqis

-I was sumwhat felt so flattered when you told me that you actually look up on me as a role model. But I am not sure myself, if I can be that good. I am not strong enough. I just am not. But thanks for telling me, that I am not a loser after all. I love you.

I do facebooking but I don't play games like my friends do
I don't cook for my boyfriend like my friend does, not that I have any.
I don't held any position anymore in the batch or club.

I just don't know, what could possibly be wrong with me. I just don't.