being strong means ...

Hey everyone! good greetings to y'all. It's been awhile since I wrote something in here. Not sure why but twitter makes it much easier to write simple quote or expressions of the day. I'd be writing in here if ever there's any special occasion especially heart rantings. Goodness, I feel much appreciated when Ash asked for an update. Usually it takes brainstorm to write a post, but it takes crapness to write a tweet.

For now I don't really have much to say. I am quite in a stable mode still. Not crying but will cry in any day now depends on what day obgynn dept is gonna print the exam result. So I better HANG ON here!!! So NOW, i'd like to talk about BEING STRONG.

Being strong is much more than having to face hardness or burdens that you have to face wether you like it or not. Being strong has many definitions, but there is only one that suits you best. After browsing few searches on BEING STRONG i found few ~

1. Being strong does not mean not crying – it means daring to cry and being willing to carry on after that.




2. Being strong does not mean avoiding the truth – it means accepting it, learning about it, and dealing with it head on.




3. Being strong means recognising the things you can’t change, realizing the things you can do, and having the perceptivity, fortitude and wisdom to tell the difference between the two.




4. Being strong does not mean getting stuck in the moment, but being able to get on with one’s life despite the constraints and emcumberances.




5. Being strong means juggling sacrifices whilst pushing for progress.




6. Being strong means having the capablity and fortitude to stand steadfastly despite the blows of change.




7. Being strong means being the pillar of support for yours, when yours breaks down.

There’s probably a million and one definitions of what strength means out there.

If I've to decide which one suits me best, I'd probably choose 6. I am currently being in a situation where I am not on the same stance on the staircase with the others. So there's height difference. I am down by a case unlike others who will go up another case leaving me behind. So here I am, ALONE in the lower case of the stair. Well, actually I am not alone but pretty much ALONE among my close friends. This CHANGE is somehow quite disturbing and I am feeling pretty much left out. Add up to my sensitivness, this is gonna get UGLIER.

You'd probably see the withdrawal syndrome in me~

• Trouble sleeping or excessive sleeping




• A dramatic change in appetite, often with weight gain or loss




• Fatigue and lack of energy




• Feelings of worthlessness, self-hate, and inappropriate guilt




• Extreme difficulty concentrating




• Agitation, restlessness, and irritability




• Inactivity and withdrawal from usual activities




• Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness

Besides that,, I do get feelings of rumination. Feeling bad about myself, which is not necessary for any reason at all. Thinking of what others might be thinking about me. The danger is to believe in the negative thoughts or the thoughts I presume on what others might think about me. I do feel better after finding out that it's a symptom on depression, not just something that happens exclusively on me.